Amazon Self Publishing

I know it’s been a while since I have been around, work has been nuts! But I hope you’re all still with me! I have finally finished the book I was working on, and I am excited to see where I go from here. I am going to give self publishing a try on Amazon for a while, and once I am done editing and what not, I wouldn’t mind giving a few of my readers a free copy to be rated!

I, myself, do book reviews as well. I have been looking for a good place to create a blog just purely for book reviews. Any suggestions? We are on Facebook at this moment, and you can find us at Facebook.com/TheBooknatics. I will be around today, hoping to adjust some stuff around on this blog to see how I can fit in my book reviews =) Any suggestions would be great, thanks!

Life and Death

Sunny, the King of the Chirps

Hello, Friends.

Man, I must say… If the end of the world isn’t this year, then I must just be cursed. I have some grieving to get off my chest. I am not trying to be melodramatic or seeking attention, but writing is and always will be my outlet… thank you for being here with me =) But, this year, I have lost my grandmother, two cats, a dog, and early this morning, my Cockatiel Sunny. The last 5 years he has brought songs and cheer to my life, with every one of his favorite songs, he’d dance and chirp happily away to it. I would let him fly around the house, and let him play in the trees in the yard, feed him fruit, spoil him so. But, with the stress of work and life lately, had lessened my time with him, though I always sang to him and talked to him every night.

But I can’t help but feel guilty that it had been a while since I have let him out to fly around the house as he loved so much. I have always had these dreams where I would fly, and the feeling of my wings spreading and gliding through the air I had imagined what pure bliss it must feel like to do so. I could only imagine what it felt like for a bird in this very real world. I cried and cried, hysterical when I lost each of my loved ones this year. But, just about twenty minutes ago, I had imagined Sunny flying and flying, circles around the happiest place he can imagine, and I instantly felt so relieved. Could this be what death is like? Is death a blessing?

Again, I am not depressed, I do not wish to go and end my life, but, think about it. Do you remember what it was like to be a kid? No matter how bad your family had it, poor, rich, what ever, not a care in the world, mortality was the least of your worries. Maybe you too were easily amused, imagination so vivid you could make up your own world and lose yourself in it. Oh the adventures that took me around the world, was just a yard and pure innocence away…Jungle gyms became a pirate ship, trampolines turned into the dark and mysterious outter space where gravity had no chains on you, a couple of chairs and a blanket was a tent set up in the scariest most curious forest. That is what I hope we have to look forward to, life after death. Whether it may be Heaven, or any world that your mind creates. Where you are reunited with so many long lost loved ones, where I hope all my pets, all my family is there waiting for us. Where no one is scared, no poverty, no starvation, no restrictions to what your heart desires.

I think after visioning my Nana with her mother, and her loved ones, my cats wrestling around at the feet of my grandparents, and Sunny flying higher and wider than ever before, it makes me not so afraid of dying anymore. I used to fear death, there was so much I wanted to do, and achieve before my time ends. But this world is cruel, our country is falling apart, men and women all over the world are risking their lives for their country, their family, and making sacrifices because times are hard.

People live every day stressing and dreading what the day may bring and go to bed for the night with plans already on their mind on how to survive the next day with a sane mind. Most people are too busy to stop and take a breather, because they are in such a tight spot, living paycheck to paycheck, trying to feed their kids before themselves, or worrying when the next job will be available so they are no longer unemployed. It astounds me how big corporations are living the comfy life, laying one person off after another most of the time, just to have more money for themselves. I’ve seen this so many times. I’ve met so many people that HAVE worked hard, but can’t get any further because of greedy corps. Inflation is rising, and jobs aren’t paying enough to compensate. People are struggling. I am struggling.

I pray, that life is just a test, like an obstacle to overcome and conquer… to prove you are deserving of the euphoria that awaits… the hard earned medal at the end of the course. I truly believe that you don’t know true happiness till your life here is complete. No more war, no more watching your loved ones going through pain and suffering, just pure happiness and love. I just can’t bring myself to believe that nothing happens when you die, that the soul doesn’t live on an everything just blows to oblivion. In the gut of me, I just feel life does go on, and it’s like breaking free, of the chains, sorrow, pain. Just like a  caged, anxious bird, released and wings unfurled, a blissful flight. I am no longer afraid to leave this world. All of our struggles and our kindness will pay off in the end I embrace it. I know the Lord will not let us down.

Hello!

So, a friend directed me to this website to follow her post,  looked around some more, found that I like it very much here! I’ve been looking for a good blog spot for years now. I have been known my whole life to be over-ambitious, and face it, there just isn’t enough time in the world to make a living off everything I love. I write stories/lyrics, play guitar and piano, photography, camping/hiking, dancing, singing, sketching/painting, well, the list goes on. I’ve been looking for one place to keep a journal of some sort, to share anything I create and to keep me motivated to finish projects that never get finished otherwise, or  other hobbies, such as gaming, books reviews, etc. I guess I should introduce myself, my namy is Sky, I am 26 years old born in California, and resided now in dreadful Texas, with the most wonderful boyfriend of 4 years. I have the cutest pup Harley, and  a few cats…( don’t look at me like that) And a cockatiel named Sunny. A lot of my art and photography is based off mainly of animals and nature, which I am very much looking forward to posting soon.

Well, I have babbled on enough already and it is getting late here. But I am very excited to start this blog, and hope that anything I share may  be of interest! It has been my dream to express myself through my talents, and who knows. maybe this blog will help me overcome my fear of judgement and insecurity of displaying.